I hate Saturday nights. Bakit? Kasi parang tinetest ang self control ko. Pero ngayong gabi I’m putting my foot down and I’m not doing whatever it is that I’m thinking of doing. Sabi ko sa kanya, “Maging masungit ka na lang kasi sa akin para mas madali.” Syempre, tinawanan lang ako. Aisshhh. Stop stop stop.

Ito po ako at nagba-blog na lang at nagsesenti sa mga opm songs hehehe. Kelangan ko talaga mag-aral kasi may exam ako sa Lunes pero pahinga muna kasi galing lang sa biyahe. Alam ko na talaga dati na…

reading on the bus + empty stomach = hilo

…pero wala pa ring kadala-dala. Maya ulit ako review. Nagkakaroon na nga ako ng left-sided chest pains kakabasa ata tungkol sa heart. Sabi ko kanina sa dinner, “Magkaka-heart attack yata ako.” Tinawanan lang ako ng Papa ko. Parang lahat ng tao ngayon tinatawanan na lang ako. Ewan ko ba.

Simula ng pumasok ako sa nursing school nakaramdam na ako ng -
1. tingling sa paa, frequent urinations - kala ko may diabetes ako at nakakaranas na ako ng neuro- and nephropathy. Guilty ako kasi ang lala ng sweet tooth ko. Pero ngayon bihira na ako kumain ng chocolate. Promise.

2. nahihirapan ako lumunok - feeling ko may esophageal cancer ako, takot ako kasi mabilis daw mamatay.

3. iniisip ko nga kung may fracture ako sa shin kasi sumasakit minsan.

4. shortness of breath and palpitations - for various reasons, depende sa nangyayari, like anxiety, panic, nervousness, stress.

5. naisip ko nga na baka nastretch na masyado ang bituka ko kaya malaki ang tiyan ko (katakawan hehehe) kasi may napanuod ako sa TV about a museum ng weird medical stuff na may lalaki na may ganung condition. I don’t know if the previous sentence even makes sense.

6. Minsan isang gabi akala ko may scabies (aka galis) ako sa kaliwang kilay hehehe. Kasi sabi mas nararamdam siya sa gabi na parang gumagapang sa ilalim ng balat kasi nakaburrow sa ilalim ng balat yung mga scabies tapos sa gabi sila nangitngitlog. Pag kinakamot ko nawawala tapos bumabalik tapos ilang beses ako naghilamos ayaw pa rin umalis. Hanggang nakalimutan ko na lang siguro nawala na din.

Dahil pala sa scabies na yan may nalaman akong mga bagong word etymologies:

Nitpicking - To be concerned with or find fault with insignificant details.
Di ba yung anak ng mga lice ang tawag nits eh di kapag nagtatanggal ka ng mga lisa di ba attention to small details talaga yun hehehe. Thus the word nitpicking. Makes sense. This is according to wikipedia, if I remember correctly.

Cooties - body louse
Webster.com etymology: perhaps modification of Malay kutu (pwede din Tagalog kuto hehehe)

Bago ko po tapusin ang aking post na walang direksiyon, walang totoong topic, at wala sa ayos. Kanta muna tayo ng If You Asked Me To, MYMP version. Love the song. Galing ni Juris.

Gracey, I think na-post mo na to dati. Pagaya na lang

Abusado ako ngayong araw na to, ang dami ko kinain.

For breakfast I had:
Rice and pritong isda - 400 calories
1 bottle of Ensure - 250 calories

Lecture break at DD:
Medium french vanilla coffee (w/ half/half and sugar) - 80 calories
8 pieces Munchkins (the strawberry jelly kind) - 400 calories

Lunch:
Mushroom and swiss burger - 500 calories
Venti javanilla with creamer - 150 calories

Merienda:
Mixed vegetables - 100 calories
Clam chowder (baon ng classmate ko, nakikain pa) - 100 calories

That’s what…almost 2000 calories already. I’m not eating dinner I swear. Well, maybe a piece of bread and coffee when I study later, I need the energy hehehe. I’m trying to watch what I eat. I’m not really dieting in a sense that most people would think I’m “starving” myself; that would be an impossible task. I’m just putting some variety into my diet (more fruits and veggies), more H2O, less sugar (ang hirap), and less processed foods. Plus, I’m trying to be more active. I want to start jogging but until now it’s just a plan. I know this is something I would enjoy, like walking. I want to take care of myself. Before I was just super conscious of my flabby middle now I’m more concerned about my overall health (tinakot ako ng nursing school hahaha).

I’m not so successful today, evidently. Because I felt guilty I walked home from school to offset some of the calories. Today’s activities were:

- Walk half of the way to and from school - 20 mins each way at moderate pace
- Up and down the stairs x 5 - classroom is on the 3rd floor
- Random walking around/pacing/fidgeting/jumping/stretching during studying and lecture/study breaks (I really can’t sit still and study for hours and do it in complete silence, I’d be asleep in 10 mins)

Still doesn’t seem enough after all that food. Oh well. Tomorrow is another day.

hmmm…okay…anong kwento ko? I’ve been spending my days at home since the beginning of August and working only on weekends. I’ve been on study mode, couch potato mode (kahit wala akong couch), and oversleeping mode. We all need a good amount of sleep, 6-8 hours sabi nila, but I’ve been abusing the privilege because I don’t have to wake up early so I feel more sluggish than usual and I get headaches that are only relieved by, guess what, more sleep hahaha. And I get that nagging feeling that I’m wasting time. An instructor said in class that people who get less sleep are more productive; syempre gusto kong maging productive person :). Here’s a WebMD link to the physical side effects of oversleeping. According to them people who sleep nine hours or more at night have higher death rates than people who sleep less. Haha kilos kilos my friends.

To my credit, I did finish the 1000 questions I’m supposed to answer. I had to get 80% proficiency so I might have answered double the number before I got that 80%. It was a long and boring process. I went to school and took the 3 required exams and failed one of them haha. There’s a few people in the library and we asked a classmate if she finished the tests and if she passed. She said, “In my heart, I passed…” hahaha. Anyway, I’m just laughing because we always get remedial for these and a lot of people are in the same boat.

Hmmm…there’s really nothing much to say. Since school starts next week, I can sum up my summer now: work and schoolwork. The truth is I can’t wait to be busy again. I miss the pressure, sort of. It takes my mind off things and that’s when you learn, when you really have to.