“Let me give you pain to relieve your pain.”

hehehe. One of the instructors said this when she was explaining that there are not a lot of pain medications given IM (intramuscular-ly) because this particular kind of injection is very painful. Anyway, it was funny when she said it. Of course, it’s not as funny now that I’m repeating it.

We are doing an OB rotation this semester. Yay! I’m excited and this might be a type of nursing that I would want to pursue, but I’m not sure about anything yet. They showed us a video about newborn assessment and I wanna be the one who rolls her eyes while everyone is going “aw” every time the baby cries or makes these cute, little sounds, but, you know it, I was one of the aw-ers. Couldn’t help it. I just thought that if I ended up working in OB or Pediatrics, it would be heartbreaking if, you know… Let’s not talk about this…

So yun, my calendar is full. And after 2 semesters I know now to stop doing things last minute and cause even more stress to myself. I really don’t have the time to complain of boredom. Halata ba I’m happy about school starting? hehehe.

As my cousin have repeatedly told me - “You’re a geek, Ate Lorie.”
And I would answer - “Thanks!” (no sarcasm)

Syempre, I’m also happy to see the friendly folks at school. Let’s just see if I’m still this enthusiastic after the first exam or in 2 weeks when clinical (gulp) starts.

hmmm…okay…anong kwento ko? I’ve been spending my days at home since the beginning of August and working only on weekends. I’ve been on study mode, couch potato mode (kahit wala akong couch), and oversleeping mode. We all need a good amount of sleep, 6-8 hours sabi nila, but I’ve been abusing the privilege because I don’t have to wake up early so I feel more sluggish than usual and I get headaches that are only relieved by, guess what, more sleep hahaha. And I get that nagging feeling that I’m wasting time. An instructor said in class that people who get less sleep are more productive; syempre gusto kong maging productive person :). Here’s a WebMD link to the physical side effects of oversleeping. According to them people who sleep nine hours or more at night have higher death rates than people who sleep less. Haha kilos kilos my friends.

To my credit, I did finish the 1000 questions I’m supposed to answer. I had to get 80% proficiency so I might have answered double the number before I got that 80%. It was a long and boring process. I went to school and took the 3 required exams and failed one of them haha. There’s a few people in the library and we asked a classmate if she finished the tests and if she passed. She said, “In my heart, I passed…” hahaha. Anyway, I’m just laughing because we always get remedial for these and a lot of people are in the same boat.

Hmmm…there’s really nothing much to say. Since school starts next week, I can sum up my summer now: work and schoolwork. The truth is I can’t wait to be busy again. I miss the pressure, sort of. It takes my mind off things and that’s when you learn, when you really have to.

Naisipan ko lang mag-login sa website namin sa school kung merong bagong announcements tapos nakita ko na available na yung semester calendar at course syllabus. Ni-review ko lang ng konti.

Bigla akong nagka-palpitations.

Last semester, a classmate and I went to one tutorial session to see how it would work for us. The topic of the tutorial was about personality disorders. When we were discussing obsessive-compulsive personality disorder, the tutor told us a story of a woman with OCPD who was featured in a TV show or something like that. This woman looks perfectly normal if you meet her outside her home; she is neat and is always made up nicely. But when the people from the show checked her house, the place was a pigsty. She has two dogs so there was poo everywhere. In my mind, I saw leftovers and creepy-crawlies all over the place. They asked the woman why she allowed this to happen and she said that if she cannot clean her house perfectly she might as well not do it. Hard to believe but as my psych instructor always say, “You never know how people think.” I also love it when she says, “Don’t laugh. You don’t know who you’re seating next to.” Anyway, the point of this entry is all over the place now hehehe. I remembered this because…

MY ROOM IS A MESS! It’s been nagging me, even when I’m at work. Sure I have 1-2 hours available before or after work. But I can’t and won’t do it until I have that perfect day when I can do everything from start to finish. I have things to clean, organize, put away, and I need to make some sort of plan/schedule of stuff that needs to be done before fall. I must be going crazy.

Anyway, going back to personality disorders, I learned that OCD is different from OCPD. OCD is easier to control or treat or, dare I say, cure, whereas OCPD is not something you (doctors, therapists, etc.) can change. Your personality is who you are, period. People who have personality disorders are ego-syntonic, meaning they don’t believe or realize that there is something wrong with them. A person with depressive disorder, who suddenly lost interest in activities/people they ordinarily enjoy and spend time with, could take medications, have therapy, and eventually get better. On the other hand, a person with schizoid personality disorder will have a persistent pattern of avoiding people and relationships, nothing anyone can do about that.